{"product_id":"battered-gary-leighton","title":"Battered - Gary Leighton","description":"\u003cp class=\"MsoBodyText\" style=\"line-height: 112%; margin: 9.55pt 4.7pt .0001pt 1.15pt;\"\u003e\u003cspan style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eGrowing up in a narcissistic household meant walking on eggshells, earning love through achievement, and learning that vulnerability was dangerous. Home was unpredictable, praise\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ewas\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.25pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003econditional,\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eand\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.25pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eself-worth\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ewas\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.25pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003efragile\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eand\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.25pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ehard-won.\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eSurvival\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.25pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003erequired\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003evigilance, resilience, and silence.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoBodyText\" style=\"line-height: 112%;\"\u003e\u003cspan style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003e\u003cbr\u003eThose same traits would later lead to a career in the fire and police services – professions where\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ecomposure\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eunder\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003epressure\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eand\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eemotional\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003econtrol\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eare\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003enot\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ejust\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003evalued,\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ebut\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eessential.\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.2pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eIn the\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003efront\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eline,\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003echaos\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003efelt\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003efamiliar, trauma\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ewas\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eroutine,\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eand\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003estrength\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ewas\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003eexpected, but\u003cspan style=\"letter-spacing: -.1pt;\"\u003e \u003c\/span\u003ebeneath the uniform, old wounds remained unhealed. The drive to prove, to endure, to never falter came at a cost. Exposure to tragedy compounded childhood conditioning, blurring the line between dedication and self-destruction. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp class=\"MsoBodyText\" style=\"line-height: 112%;\"\u003e\u003cspan style=\"mso-ansi-language: EN-GB;\"\u003eIn this powerful and deeply honest memoir, the author reveals what it means to endure both narcissistic abuse and the relentless demands of emergency service. It is a story of hidden trauma, quiet courage, burnout, awakening, and, ultimately, recovery. Surviving the job was one battle. Surviving the past was another. 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